Starless Night
Pale is the light in this starless night,
Wind blows I can't sleep tight.
Darkness devoured this life,
No more tears I have to hold it right.
As my soul dimmed its light
Blurring is my sight,
I don't know if I can make it
To think I can make it right.
This poison seethes my vein,
Darkness above hovering
I don't really saw light,
In this starless night.
Poems
I've been always creating a depressive mood of poems. No matter what my urge to create an inspirational poem, time and place always hindring me to have inspiration to make it.
But, even thoug my poems are depressives, you can get inspiration from it. Why, because you will never know light without darkness.
A beautiful light is made from darkness and it is often the best
Tragic Love
Awakened! With my eyes wide open.
I saw you walking in the dawning morning.
You walk as light as a feather with glowing beauty.
Sweet as fruit, looks like an amber rose.
Your skin is so soft.
Your lips are like a wine;
I am tempted to sip.
Looking at your eyes is just like ecstasy!
Being with you is just like heaven.
Your venomous kiss,
Kills my loneliness!
No more cold night
Inside you warm embrace.
Darkness veiled us the darkness!
Shadows took you away;
I can't help but to cry as I saw you bleed!
And to stare at my lonely sky!
I saw you lying breathless,
Your eyes closed, in the dressed coffin.
Your lips are now rotten.
Should I blame the blade?!
Tragic love endless tears gave me
Tragic love covered me veil of darkness
Tragic love brings me infinite sadness
And left me in the infinite abyss and death.
I am waiting for the time to be with you
Hoping for the time to have you
Thinking for the time of eternal peace
Holding for the time to come
That I may lay down with you
You and I togetherIn your lonely tomb
~~ Dan the Dark Poet
Is This The End Of All Hopes?
Before, because of rejection and loneliness, I always think ways on how to get rid all those things, always thinking on how to end even my life.
But then, I have found love and that love I have cherished and definitely I became happy. I can’t describe how happy I was and how lucky I am. Our sweet moments, our loving moments I always recall every minute and the smile from the one I love every time am sad and lonely makes me happy.
Now, I found out a possibility of my death which makes me depress thinking that I cannot leave the one I love. But if I will die, I have promised that my spirit will always be with the one I love and wait until we will live again. If I will die and God will ask me the things I have done I would answer, “I have love a person more than anyone could do.” To the one I love, if I will die don’t weep; show me no tears to flow from your eyes. Show me happiness for it will help me be happy.
Heartache Once Again (Is this my goodbye?)
Just when I thought everything is over and turning better, again the dark mist slowly covering my soul. Maybe looks can be very deceiving.
I became happy because I have overcomes hindrances. Became happy because I always think that there are always positive things but am afraid not.
People are very deceiving but I have deceived not. I have not been deceived but rejected.
I want to be positive always, has been rarely that for the past three or four years, the happiness that I have felt and possessed, I have worked for or I have tried to prove in vain… nothing is ever what it seems or turns out to be, its not like you can put happiness in a container and just hand it to someone who is miserably and lonely… though I wish God would let us do so.
We all have our destinies and I have that perhaps I never lived it up to mine, to those that I have left behind, I am so sorry, I promise to be forever be with you and I pray that no one except those that have betrayed me will feel guilty of my death (If I will, for only those who betrayed me have brought me here.
I’m so tired of being in one’s arms one moment and then being left and crying on my bed the next… I’m tired of hearing that “things will get better”… well it doesn’t, things never get better! How long must I try to strive before people realize that my pain is real, just because I don’t break down and cry in front of someone’s eyes doesn’t mean that I don’t feel pain every damn second of the day?
Sleep, my slumber is awakened by images of death that I saw with my father, it pains me to relive every moments that I try my hardest to forget, I’m tired of being rejected by the people whom I love, they are a main source to my pain, and Guys…I won’t even go there… to feel the betrayal and lost of my recent love, has brought me into a deep depression that I tried so hard to come out of. I didn’t have a voice in this life, my cries for help were unheard, a part of me didn’t want them to be silenced, yet I didn’t want to become the attention of such chaos, there was enough of that in my life and I’d rather die than have my family know that I went to the “crazy house.”
So I watched a movie were a girl who is betrayed by the love of her life went into her father’s closets, grabbed his gun and placed it in her mouth and ended her pain, her mom found her on the couch, blood everywhere and a note recovered in her pocket that said “I died for you just like Christ died for us, please pray that God will forgive me, I love you and I am sorry”… and so, Do I need to do exactly what the girl did?
For others to feel, what I feel? Just for others to understand me? Just for others just to love me?
About Me
Nobody knows me. People are pretending that they know me already if they will know my name but am not that idiot and narrow! I don't want to describe myself for it only reflects the little side of me but not the INNER ME and I am aware of who am I so just ask ne some questions and I will answer.
Their first impression about me is I am mean and full of bad attitude for I am just quiet in the corner. Well I am not, I am very approachable, friendly quiet but if you started some interesting topic you cant stop me from talking.... sometimes am happy, sometimes lonely, sometimes full of angst, sometimes moody it depends on the people around me coz I am affected by other's emotions even though I dunno them personally.Am trying to be normal but when I am trying to be.... I am starting become an extra ordinary.... coz of mysterious thing which is exactly happening. How about experiencing that you saw your physical body lying on bed while you are floating on the ceiling? stunning isn't it? How about oftentimes, your dreams during night are manifesting? That makes you paranoid especially when you'll having bad dreams? was it fine? How about being affected by other's feeling? as if you are on their shoes? is it fair? but you won't believe me if I will tell you everything.
Well you can take me everywhere, you can make me try new things if they are good. Well I am versatile in everything even in bed hehehhehehe if u know what I mean. hehehe juz kidding.
The Paranormal Phenomena that I have experienced
When I was about 16 yrs. of age, I am very tired coming from school and I got to bed to take some nap few moments later, I felt that I was flying and I just let the feeling and ride with it coz it is soothing and relaxing but I get stunned when I saw myself lying down on bed while I am floating just above my body and reaching the ceiling. I get scared and some force pull me down and I hurriedly sit down and it is like that I am very very tired and haggard. From then, I often feel other's emotions as if I am they and they are me and I am having some precognitive dreams. And sometimes I can even know what words they will say before they will say it. I started to search and learn about meditation and exercises to develop psychic powers and now I am practicing Cartomancy a form of divination through ordinary deck of cards and Rune Divination. I am now developing my psychic powers and found out that I am improving time by time I try to focus.